I really don't feel like writing anything here today. I've completed steps for the past week but yeah, I just feel like shit. I've got a lot of stuff coming up which is new to me, new environments and situations. You might think what's the big deal? This is the problem I have. I've always felt like I'm trying to live a normal life but I'm not normal. As if I have some kind of social problem which just prevents me from being able to do the same things some people find it so easy to do.
I'm starting some volunteer work this week at the job centre, basically just helping out whilst I don't have a job, makes sense but all the issues involved just make me have a huge feeling of impending doom. I've also been helping out at my brother-in-laws shop which has been a new experience. When I talk about these things on here or with other people, they seem normal and fine, even to me. When I'm on my own thinking about them though, I just panic. I start tomorrow and the little things like the fact I don't really have good shoes which fit properly make me feel sick.
Other than that though... the week has been fine. Walking has been pretty good and my legs haven't been hurting as much. The weather has been getting warmer and I've felt a little self concious wearing anything less than my coat. I'm not sure why really but, I like the fact the coat is so big and kinda slimming.
Here's the results for this week -
I just want to point out that making that picture took me a lot longer than usual. Anyway, here's the results. You can see that on the 23rd I did the most steps which is the day that I was helping out in the store. Thanks for reading, ill be back again next week. Hopefully employed with a job that is actually paying me.
I'm starting some volunteer work this week at the job centre, basically just helping out whilst I don't have a job, makes sense but all the issues involved just make me have a huge feeling of impending doom. I've also been helping out at my brother-in-laws shop which has been a new experience. When I talk about these things on here or with other people, they seem normal and fine, even to me. When I'm on my own thinking about them though, I just panic. I start tomorrow and the little things like the fact I don't really have good shoes which fit properly make me feel sick.
Other than that though... the week has been fine. Walking has been pretty good and my legs haven't been hurting as much. The weather has been getting warmer and I've felt a little self concious wearing anything less than my coat. I'm not sure why really but, I like the fact the coat is so big and kinda slimming.
Here's the results for this week -
I just want to point out that making that picture took me a lot longer than usual. Anyway, here's the results. You can see that on the 23rd I did the most steps which is the day that I was helping out in the store. Thanks for reading, ill be back again next week. Hopefully employed with a job that is actually paying me.