Raftermans Blog.

This week was the first where I actually worked a full week, which was like 7 full days of working. I wasn't sure if I would still be able to do my walk after all this but luckily, most days I had just naturally done my steps from walking around. I'm surprised how much I've actually been walking with my office job. I expected to do very little but I've been going over 8,000 by the time I get home. I do spend my hour lunch break walking around the town centre though so that probably helps.  Again my biggest problem is that I cannot seem to eat healthier. I struggle to eat vegetables/fruit naturally and I kinda have to force myself to eat them whenever I remember. Although eating healthier will help, really what I need to do is just eat less and lower calorie foods. I have a major sweet tooth and can't help myself recently. As for take out, I used to eat it like 3 times a day, but recently I've cut it down to 2 or 1. Still not great but certainly an improvemen

I really don't feel like writing anything here today. I've completed steps for the past week but yeah, I just feel like shit. I've got a lot of stuff coming up which is new to me, new environments and situations. You might think what's the big deal? This is the problem I have. I've always felt like I'm trying to live a normal life but I'm not normal. As if I have some kind of social problem which just prevents me from being able to do the same things some people find it so easy to do. I'm starting some volunteer work this week at the job centre, basically just helping out whilst I don't have a job, makes sense but all the issues involved just make me have a huge feeling of impending doom. I've also been helping out at my brother-in-laws shop which has been a new experience. When I talk about these things on here or with other people, they seem normal and fine, even to me. When I'm on my own thinking about them though, I just panic. I start

Motivation has been the biggest problem this week. I've had tough decisions to make about my future such as if I'm going to continue looking for a full time job, follow my dreams and do something I really want, or go back to school. Having these things in my head has kinda messed me up but I still haven't really decided. When it comes to doing my walk or motivating myself to get up and go I'm really struggling. The only thing keeping me at this is just the thought of the disappointment in myself If I stopped. I've tried to combat this by inviting my friends to come along on the walk. It made a lot of difference but yeah, can't really rely on this. My left ankle is hurting a lot from the walks as well. I think its either because I'm going to little too early, or I'm walking up a steep hill a little too fast. I'm hoping its one of these and not something a little more serious, I don't think it's that bad because it happens intermittently. H

This week I actually broke my record! again... It was Holly's birthday so I did my walk and then ended up walking a ton around Manchester which helped push it over my record. The when I got home I walked Winston which added another 1,000 steps to the total. This sounds great but I was actually pretty worried I wouldn't make it through the week. There was a decent amount of stress with getting Holly's presents together and then my social anxiety kicked in. Despite all that, I still managed to stick through it. I'm getting incredibly bored of my usual route though which is becoming a problem. I've invited a few friends along a few times which has helped a lot. It would be better If I listened to music or an audio book but for some reason I just can't be bothered. It makes me not want to go on the walk. I'll have to figure something out in the coming weeks. Here's the progress -  Pretty decent but actual weight loss isn't that impressive. I'v

I've been finding it a little hard to stay motivated with a few real life issues that I've been having, I'm always left feeling happier at the end of my walks but just getting myself to do it has been tough. I've had a few job interviews which I didn't get and it's just been a pretty crappy situation. My life is slowly adjusting though, I can't relax until I've completed my steps. I think this is great because It's me slowly changing my lifestyle. I went to a milkshake place which is along the walk route and I've been looking at a few ways I can make it more entertaining. A few days like today for example I've been able to get my steps done without going out of my way which is nice. Here's the steps for this week - I've been wondering if I should try pushing myself to do more, maybe 11,000? When I think about this I get a little worried it might be too much. That's it for this week, it's a little shorter than us